Just broken a mug

[avevale_intelligencer]

It was a beautiful mug from Boscastle in Cornwall, pot-bellied with a design of bare trees on a green background. I gave it to my mum when we visited many years ago, and got it back after my dad died. I didn't use it myself, kept it for best, but I loved to look at it. If you've visited us any time in the past year or two you've probably used it. I was shifting things to clean the work top and I knocked it off its hook and it broke.

I break things all the time, because I'm so fucking clumsy, but this was worse. I seem to be holding in a good deal of undirected and inappropriate anger at the moment for some reason, and I can't shift it. And now it's cost me a beautiful thing that I'll have to go to Cornwall to replace, because the pottery doesn't trade online as far as I can tell. I wouldn't trust the post with something like this anyway.

And now all I want to do is take the rest of our huge collection of mugs out into the garden and throw them at the wall one after the other. Which would be stupid.

Today, as some of my friends are wont to say, is SO fired.

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[earth-wizard.livejournal.com]

Yea, I sympathize with you. I just found out my bank account is overdrawn. Traced it down to a credit card company that double-charged me this month leaving me not only penniless, but with overdrafts and other bills going unpaid (one of them being my electric bill). LOL! So, as with you, I feel like attacking something, but realize it would only end up destroying something connected either to me or a loved one... Oh the power of capital to enchain us and drive us to desperation...

Oh well... hope you overcome it with a smile rather than a frown, and laugh at yourself amid all the chaos of our daily life on this most interesting of planets.

I did, and realized life will always present me with obstacles, and that it is still up to me how I either accept the challenges and go on... ergo. my heroic despair as well as laughter at my own foilbles and incongruencies.