Home alone

[avevale_intelligencer]

I left her at about eight tonight, before they kicked me out. She was being brave, mostly for my benefit I think, but I know that having things done to her eyes is something she's always been scared of. She has her Daisy player and five talking books, which hopefully will get her through the night.

The op will be tomorrow morning, and I shall be able to get in to see her again at two, though she may not be awake. If all goes well I should be bringing her home Saturday.

I can't go into details about what they're doing, and I don't imagine anyone would really want me to, but the analogy the consultant used was getting chewing gum off tissue paper without tearing it.

Those of you who are so inclined may want to offer up a quick prayer to Saint Lucy, or whomever you feel might help. I don't have anyone to pray to, and quite frankly right now I wish I did.

I'm going to have something to eat and immerse myself in a Dornford Yates. I'll post again when I know what's happening.

Many on my flist are in similar situations with regard to relatives, or undergoing treatment themselves. I wish you all the best possible treatment and a swift recovery, and lots and lots of love.

Oh, and many happy returns to fleetfootmike!

Comments

[zanda-myrande.livejournal.com]

At the moment I'd settle for Making This One Thing No Worse Than It Has To Be. But no, I fail at faith.

Thank you for whatever attention you can send our way. It is much appreciated.

[janewilliams20.livejournal.com]

OK, done that. As well as the sight thing,I got "directed" (hard to explain, but it's to do with natural energy flows going where they're needed) to her overall health and emotional support.

On the "faith" thing... what I find works for me isn't faith in some all-powerful being, and certainly not a being as described by other people where some of the details supplied quite obviously aren't true. What works for me is "this technique for doing things produces results". If I switch on a light switch, I have "faith" that there's a good chance a light will come on. There may of course be a "pop!" and a lot of other lights going out, but chances are on my side. If I pour water on the garden, I have faith that it'll go downhill, soak into soil available, and make plants feel better. If I do a bit of meditation, pull in energy and run it through my chakras for a bit, I know I'll feel better and more energised to face the day. If, once grounded like that, I pull in more energy, visualise a friend, and send it their way, I know there's a good chance the karma flows of the universe will help me direct it to make things better for them. It feels a lot like watching the water head for the driest bit of soil and get soaked up, come to think of it. All natural processes, with a bit of intervention from me, and I don't understand any of them, i just use them.

Had you and Jan considered any of the "alternative therapy" methods, by the way? Lots of different names and techniques, but we're all watering plants, just with different shaped wateringcans and hosepipes.

hmm, having just come up with that analogy to try to explain to you, I find myself liking it more and more - thanks!

[keristor.livejournal.com]

I like that analogy! I don't know, with 100% certainty, that the light will come on when I operate the switch, but I behave as though it will. (I actually have less faith in gravity, I'm half convinced that it might go 'pop' and stop working sometime, but I may be unique in that patricular lack of faith.)

I like the one about watering the garden as well, that sort of 'manipulation' makes a lot of sense to me.