I really should know better by now

[avevale_intelligencer]

I don't know why I keep doing it. I relax, I think I'm among friends, I tentatively bring out an idea that's close to my heart and I watch someone jumping up and down on the tiny shining thing because they choose to believe I've said something quite different. I don't think "Wouldn't it be nice if we could change our attitudes to the way we think about work and creativity" is quite the same as "Creative people should be let off work and everyone else should support them"; but I daresay I read old books of logic. Anyway, I don't suppose it would have cost me so much sleep if I wasn't still raw over the other thing, but as it is I don't even have the energy to be offended over what kind of person they obviously think I am.

Sorry for wasting everyone's time.

Comments

[bardling.livejournal.com]

Feelings simply are. Not right or wrong, they just are. You feel hurt - that *is*.
I think & hope I have not contributed to that feeling, and again I want to say thank you for the thoughtfulnees to have, and for the courage to *voice* those thoughts. I think they are very good thoughts, and the main idea is rare & precious & good enough that it definitely deserves to get that outing & support.
Not everybody agreed, although mostly I've seen people go off on tangents rather than outright disagreeing, but it still engendered a good and mostly polite discussion that was very worthwhile, I think.
It also still hurt your feelings the way it happened, or some of the participants hurt your feelings by what they (we?) said. I don't think anyone there intended to hurt you, and I do think you were very sensitive and vulnerable to hurt because it is an idea that is very dear to your heart, and you opened yourself up to let it out, letting down your "protections". Still, your feelings are no less valid for that.

I offer hugs and a comfortblanket for awhile, and hope your hurt will heal and that you'll be able to continue giving of your thoughtfulness, when you're ready to. I value you and it.
*hugs*