Alive

[avevale_intelligencer]

Though (as I may have mentioned) I do not deserve to be. That most risibly pathetic of (living) figures, the Failed Suicide.

I apologise to everyone to whom I have caused distress, and especially to those who wrestled so valiantly with the darkness for my soul in the night. I'm sorry I could not contact people sooner, but in the rush to get me to hospital the tech got left behind.

More later.

Comments

[mundungus42.livejournal.com]

"I'm sorry things suck so hard right now" seems a laughably pale sentiment in light of what you're wrestling with, but it's true, regardless. As is my relief that you are still with us and my hopes that you will heal in body and in spirit and be surrounded by those whom you love. You have so much talent and awesomeness to give the world, and I'm heartily glad the world still has to opportunity to benefit from it. *enormous hugs*

[dickgloucester.livejournal.com]

Oh, Zander. *hugs you and holds you* You DO deserve to be. I'm glad to know you. You may not be able to feel right now as though you ARE worthwhile, but I hope you are able to hear it from me, and from others - all the people who like you and love you and cherish you - that you most definitely DO deserve to be.

Let me know if there's anything I can do.

[pbristow.livejournal.com]

Damn.

[HUGS YOU TIGHT]

[aunty_marion]

Ditto. [More hugs]

[willibald.livejournal.com]

What Paul said.

[pbristow.livejournal.com]

I'll see you tomorrow. [HUGE HUGS]

[coth.livejournal.com]

Oh Zander. Hold fast. We're here, as best we can.

[little-cinnamon.livejournal.com]

I am very glad you are alive.

Illness (of any kind) is not a failure. I know the distance between knowing this logically and your gut knowing this can be vast. But sometimes it helps to hear it from someone else.

Hugs and love.

[batyatoon]

You deserve to be alive, and you do not deserve to feel as though you shouldn't be.

I am so sorry you're going through this, and I'm glad you're still alive.