I really should know better by now

[avevale_intelligencer]

I don't know why I keep doing it. I relax, I think I'm among friends, I tentatively bring out an idea that's close to my heart and I watch someone jumping up and down on the tiny shining thing because they choose to believe I've said something quite different. I don't think "Wouldn't it be nice if we could change our attitudes to the way we think about work and creativity" is quite the same as "Creative people should be let off work and everyone else should support them"; but I daresay I read old books of logic. Anyway, I don't suppose it would have cost me so much sleep if I wasn't still raw over the other thing, but as it is I don't even have the energy to be offended over what kind of person they obviously think I am.

Sorry for wasting everyone's time.

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Random acts of senseless kindness

[aunty_marion]

...or something like that. I try to "pay forward" things that have been given/done to/for me. For instance (and a very pointed instance too!) - Zander and Janet kept me mentally afloat when I was depressed and out of work, and even fed me more than a few times, without asking for anything in return. So now that I'm solvent and no longer (quite so) depressed, I have the finances and energy to do the same for them, or anyone else who I perceive could do with a lift in life. If this means producing random Cthulhus, stripping half a hall's worth of wallpaper, knitting unexpected cardigans, turning up with a car and a sewing machine.... Well, why not? I can do it. Why shouldn't I? People have done much the same for me, *without expecting reward.* And so it goes round. Someday, probably, when I'm down on my life and luck again, someone else will pull a rabbit out of an invisible hat for me.

I don't owe them anything. They don't owe me anything. But if you can - do.

Re: Random acts of senseless kindness

[bohemiancoast.livejournal.com]

Yes; when (relatively) poor I benefitted from the kindness of fans in many ways; I hope I can pay that back to some extent now.