Something else to say

[avevale_intelligencer]

EDIT: I'm serious about this. Janet is the injured party here. She suffered far more than I did, and "thank you for saving Zander," while very nice for me, makes her feel as if she doesn't matter except as a sort of accessory to me. Please let her know that's not true.

Again, her email is countess DOT axylides AT sky DOT com.

I have deleted the "suicide note" post.

However, there was one thing in it which needed saying and still does. I am overwhelmed and thankful for all the people who have sent me love and good wishes, but there is someone who both needs and deserves them far more. Janet has had to put up with:

the original situation, which was bad enough;
my lying about it, which was worse;
my suicide attempt;
being dragged off to hospital and stuck there for three full days with nothing to do, read, or wear, when there was nothing wrong with her (apart from the usual), while they pulled me back from the abyss.
And let's bear in mind she had a choice. I am still here because she saved me.

We are doing our best to make a clean start, so if I may ask, let this be a part of it.

Janet is far more than "just" my wife, as if that weren't enough.

And she has never given up on life.

If you think I am a good and worthwhile person, how much more is she.

Let her know that.

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I'd like to second what you have said. I came slightly late to this because I was busy with other things but I'm so relieved you're still here and I do hope your are getting all the help you should (and that you need).